This has been a season of contrasts for me, of great victories and great trials, of clear direction and clear redirection. There have been mornings when I wake up and immediately my heart says, “Thank you Lord! This day is yours! I know you’re with me, I know you’re for me!” and then days where all I want to do is close my eyes and wish the day away… When I have been overcome by intense emotions and feelings that seem uncontrollable even before my feet hit the ground. It has been tough, but it has been so real and the Lord has spoken into all my circumstances as I have cried and labored in prayer, seeking for my Father to comfort me, pleading for His provision, rejoicing in His hope.
The Lord has been teaching me about this life He has given me. He has shown me, told me, revealed to me, and led me to believe and realize that He is, “going to do something in your days that you would not believe, even if you were told,” Habukkuk 1:5. I know it’s true. I know He has already done such things that I am simply unaware of and then other things that have been revealed to me in His perfect timing, that I can now see, that I can praise Him for and rejoice in.
The work that He has done in my heart, how He has revealed the darkness within that He has been shining His wondrous light on has been nothing short of transformative and triumphant. My battle with idolatry and seeking security in individuals rather than the living God himself, my tendency to mistrust and worry, my thoughts that I let lead me into deep and desperate temptation where I am left in a place of discouragement and self-pity. He continues to wake me up from these places, reminding me that these don’t have to be my realities, that I can run from them, that He is seeking to break every stronghold in my life and welcome me into deeper freedom. I know my God is eager for me access an increase in glory as I obey and He is faithful to mature me and shape me to look more like Himself.
You see, I know the Lord has a great calling on my life, extending from the command to love Him with all my heart, mind, soul and strength and to love my neighbor as myself. I am convinced that I am His ambassador, that I am, as cheesy as it may sound, one big life-sized shameless plug for the Kingdom of God. I want my life to literally embody all that the Lord has made me to be so that others may be drawn through the sweet fragrance my life has the ability to give off as I stay close to Jesus, obeying Him, delighting in Him, following Him, and partnering with Him.
So, as the Lord has directed and led me in His most beautiful timing in accordance with His grand plans, after I get back from Costa Rica (I will be there June 26th through August 8th for a spanish intensive) having graduated from college… I am going to be embarking on a journey that my heart leaps in excitement for every time I think of it-
In this coming September I will be moving to the Dominican Republic with a 9 month commitment to live and work as a missionary at New Hope Girls Academy, the girls school/safe house that I visited just over a year ago. This provision extends from the hands of God and is so in line with the dreams and desires I have had in my heart since my senior year of High School when I began to envision what life might look like after college and whether or not there was a calling on my life to be a missionary. I have prayed, sought council, and even experienced little glimpses of being an overseas missionary over the last couple years and my dreams have only continued to grow. It is amazing that this little seed that was planted in my soul has continued to sprout up and I will have the opportunity to live with the girls- it is completely surreal to know this will be a reality in less than five months!! Right now I am praying about what role the Lord would have me step into during my time at New Hope.
My hope is that while I am living there I will be able to be a nanny/mother figure, laying my life down for each of the girls and truly being the hands and feet of Jesus as we all have been called to be wherever we are, whoever we are with. These girls are ages 5-14 and they are being saved and welcomed into freedom and rehabilitation out of the darkness of sex trafficking and being given an education that most in their shoes would never even dream of. The Dominican Republic is the third most human trafficked country in the world and New Hope is the only safe house that provides care for girls under the age of 12.
His command sounds simple to me, “I want you to abandon yourself Corinne and love love love.” That is the word that continues to linger as I pray and ask how the Lord wants to use me specifically. I am beginning to realize the challenges will be great and many and they will surely bring me to my knees on a daily basis and cause me to call upon my Abba more than I ever have before. But, despite the anticipated laboring and fire, my heart is courageous because of my God who lives inside of me.
I am capable, I am strong enough, I am secure, I am equipped. It may sound crazy to most, but I know that I will be okay through it all, I know that I will be able to weather every storm. This isn’t prideful, trust me, it comes from the deepest humility. It comes from a place of belief, a place of vulnerability, a place of surrender. I realized that I must believe that, “He who is in you is greater than he who is in the world,” (1 John 4:4). Because with the knowledge that nothing is impossible with God, that He is for me always, fighting and interceding on my behalf, and that I am a child of God with a secure and sure inheritance, there is no reason to fear, no reason to feel inadequate, no reason to feel like I am falling short or am not good enough or something is missing. He has made me whole, and in Jesus I lack no good thing.
So, friends, this is what I ask. Pray for me. Keep me accountable. Pray as I prepare, pray as I leave, pray while I am there. Ask me how I am doing, ask me if I am trusting the Lord, ask me if I am in full submission to Him and partnering with Him in my every moment. Challenge me, encourage me, listen to my stories because I will share them with you. Sometimes I begin to make this bigger than it really is- I’m not the only missionary- we all are. I’m not the only one with specific callings on my life- we all have them. But I also don’t want to take this lightly, I want to honor the Lord, I want to partner with Him always and also partner with others in the Kingdom so that we can make it together. I have a tendency to be a free-spirit, to excitedly go about things on a whim and have the notion that it’s just me and the Lord against the world!! And although I am leaving on my own I have been pressed and encouraged to invite as many into this journey as possible. So I’m inviting you! And I’m excited for how He will use us all.
If you have a desire to financially support me and feel the Lord is leading you and calling you to do so the best place to start is my etsy: littleflockdesigns.etsy.com. I will be adding many signs in the next couple months and am hoping to list over 100 signs before I leave the country- that way I will be able to sell while I am overseas. I have an idea of how much I will need and if it is important for you to know message me and ask and I’d be more than happy to share that information with you! Or you can look under my “PARTNER” tab on my website!
You can also give financially independent from buying my signs, email me at Corinne.firstname.lastname@example.org if that is something you would be interested in, or, you can visit that partner page and it will walk you through how to do so!
I am trusting the Lord and His provision to provide, He has done so again and again in my life and I have seen Him come through for many of my friends in ministry and missions so it is an exciting time to trust Him and labor with Him as I prepare! For more information on New Hope Academy visit: Newhopegirls.wordpress.com and you will find lots of great, practical info as well as moving, inspiring, and eye opening blog posts that will give you a glimpse into this new world I will be entering into.
But now, thus says the LORD, your Creator, O Jacob, And He who formed you, O Israel, “Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name; you are Mine! “When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they will not overflow you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be scorched, nor will the flame burn you.” Isaiah 43:1-2